My funny mom!

This morning I was taking my mom to get her blood test. She started laughing and said, look at that billboard!! The billboard had this really ugly guy on it and it said I'm available and so is this billboard!! I said to my mom, oh that would be sad to get a job because you were so ugly. She said well, ugly people have to work too I guess!! The way she said it was hillarious!!!

My front room at 6870

This is my front room that I love so much! But I have to move back to my other house, I hope it all fits!!

Some Halloween Fun!

Lee I am really missing you today. I love you! I just read Jessica's blog it made me cry she is so sweet! You were so good to me and my kids. I know I was the love of your life and you made me feel that way. I miss you calling me Kid and saying I love you babe. I know you are ok,it must be beautiful in heaven. Carlee still calls out for you. Courtney says she misses you as we all do. The kids are taking good care of me as is the church. I love them so much. You were a good man. I have started dating but the touch is not the same as yours. We had our hard times but I still love you for the good man that you are. You were the best grandpa ever!!!!! I know you must miss it. You were so excited for Jessica's baby boy to join our family. I am sure you are getting to know him before we are. I will give him extra hugs from you. I dance with Carlee she loves it so much, since you are not here to dance with her. I tell the girls how much you loved them. Thank you for helping me raise my kids. I appreciate you so much. You were a good dad to them. I am so sorry you had to pass away way before you wanted to at least you got your wish and passed in your sleep. The last words you said to me were so sweet, you told me that you were going to be ok, and I know you are!! I miss you! Love you, Kathy

Courtney and the banker

For some reason we have a wooden banker with a cigar in his mouth. Courtney is always saying she is going to marry him. Tonight I said eeewww he is going to have bad breath! I asked her if she has asked him to stop smoking and she said yes so I asked her what he said and she said NO CAN DO!!!! I'm the boss too!!

I took Courtney to church this last Sunday. On the way home she said, Grandma how about we just skip lunch today and make cookies for lunch!

First date

I went on my first date lastnight! Felt so weird and good at the same time. My last first date was 21 years ago with Lee. It was nice to go and do something. And the hug didn't feel too bad either. Some may say it is too early for me to date, but I know Lee would want me to do this, rather than sitting home sad. I would have wanted the same for Lee. He is a LDS man from Mesa, with a very good personality! And all of you know me I love a good laugh! A sense of humor is the best!!

Yesterday Courtney asked me if Grandpa has food and water in heaven, I told her no he doesn't need any and they don't have any. She siad, yes they do I used to live there and I saw it!

Yesterday Courtney wanted to play dr and i was the patient. She checked my heart with a marker and asked me if i had been running down the hall way so I said yes and asked her why she asked she said because your heart isn't beating! Then she took my my temp and I asked her what it was and she said 150 degrees, she said I am so sorry! She said I am going to put some cream on your face to help your fever but its going to give you really really bad diahrea! Then she took my temp again so I asked her what it said and she said 0! She told me not to use the thermometer again because she had just used it on a dog! I cannot believe her imagination, she is so much fun!

UUUGGGG the dating game starts once more! This is my third time around!!! I need to be on what not to wear because I know I qualify! Anyone know any cute 50 year olds out there? They have to have a cute smile with good breath!! On one of these single.com websites, I have 40 year olds trying to talk to me, they probably think I am rich, SURPRISE!!!!!! I can just see me now on my firt date, I can just imagine!! I will keep you posted on all the men that will be after me! :-)

Courtney just melted my heart, she is spending the night with me. She just said grandma when I lay by you I feel safe. It feels like love. Isn't that sweet!

I just told Courtney that Amy Gove has 3 kids, she said that is not fair! She said we only have 1 kid and thats me. She said, I prayed for a baby and Jessica got it! Not us! It skipped our house and skipped right over to Jessicas house, thats not fair! OH how I love this little girl! She makes me laugh.

this is my son Nathan, I will be moving in with him. I don't think he is too sure about this one!!!

When Courtney, age 5 was told about Lee passing away she said oh good,it took her parents by surprise and they said, why did you say that Courtney and she said, he is with God now and we will see him again. A couple days later I wanted to prepare her a little bit so I showed her the picture of his casket. I told her this was Grandpas new bed, she said well that looks cozy! Can I get in? Just 2 days ago Carlee 19 months saw his truck and said Lee, Lee! Jessica took her into our room yesterday to dance to Honey Honey, like Lee always did and she said Papa. Audrey has said some really sweet things too I just can't remember right now. I love my granddaughters! They bring me so much joy, it has helped so much.

I guess its time to make another post, its been awhile. Not in the mood I guess. Lee passed away August 31st 2009. He had a heart attack and passed away in his sleep. He was only 61 years old. Lets all take good care of our hearts! He had always said that was the way he wanted to pass so he got his wish just a few years too early. He always said he wasn't going to die until he ws 102! I always thought oh my how will I deal with that! :) Lee was a very good man, always so willing to help others. He adored his granddaughters and had everyone of them wrapped around his little finger! He was proud to be a Papa. His funeral was beautiful. Thank you to Larry and Bill for the talk and Eulogy it was wonderful. Thank you to all of you that took part in the funeral, I loved the music. Like I said in his Eulogy one thing I will miss is when he would say I love you Babe. He always tried so hard. The night before his passing he was doing his home teaching. During the week prior he had babysat for enrichment night and went on splits with the missionaries, I guess you could say he endured to the end. My family, friends and ward have been absolutely wonderful to me. They have made things so much easier to cope with and I thank each and everyone of you! The Releif Society was here before the firemen and paramedics left. We have been so blessed with the spirit here in our home it has been so comforting. Thank you for all the amazing food and time all of you have spent with me. A big thank you to Arlene and Shelley they took care of all of the funeral and cemetary arrangements, I didn't have to leave my house. They had me on speaker phone a few times but it was so much easier not having to be there in person. Shelley helped me write his Eulogy with the help of a lot of input from my kids and his family and my family. Thank you to Cammi and Bethany for the display of pictures they put in the foyer, it was beautiful. Thank you! Our R.S. President and Bishop have been amazing, thank you! Thank you to all of you that provided the beautiful music, I know Lee was there with us and was so thankful to each one of you Katie Winn in the ward is making four quilts for our granddaughters out of his shirts and ties. What a wonderful lady. Everyone has been such a great example to me. Thank you to everyone for the flowers, plants, cards,visits, food and help that you have given me. I know I am not thinking of everything but I am trying. The luncheon was beautiful and delicious, our ward went way beyond and made everything so nice! Thank you to my kids Jarrad, Nathan, Derek and Jessica you kids have been amazing and such a great support to me. I love you with all my heart! I am so proud of all of you I know it has been an exhausting 2 weeks. Thank you to Pauline, Lindsey and Tommy for all of your support and help. Thank you to Lees family for coming to his funeral from Wyoming, Utah and Nevada. I appreciate you. You have all been so thougtful and I thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart. We have cried and laughed together even though it is a hard and sad time we still were able to laugh and it felt so good. Mom and Kathy